Winter is giving me writer's block.
My blog is about my life and my interactions with the world. My inspiration comes from experiences and observations. My decision to write a daily blog comes from these things. But, in recent days, I'm living a very quiet life. Winter and the harsh, biting cold, has me opting, when I can, to simply stay in and stay warm.
Going to work is a real ordeal because I am typically the first 'pick up' for the driver and the bus interior is freezing cold. It takes a while for the buses to warm and even when they are, opening the doors to let someone out or to take someone in, all heat is lost. By the time I get to work the frame of my wheelchair is painfully cold to the touch. Cold seeps through my gloves and the rubber on my tires creaks and complains as I push my way into the building.
On the way home, it sits in the back of the car and by the time we get home the seat is frozen solid and Joe carefully opens it, aware that the seating could crack if he isn't gentle with it. I feel sorry for the chair. My power chair, on the other hand, gets me around well, although the ice can form tricky barriers for me. But sitting in the chair while driving through the cold wind chills me dangerously.
The last time I went out I came back with lips that were frozen and deeply chapped. I bought some lip balm and I'm afraid the gay in me has a wee bit too much fun applying it as if my 'milk and honey' balm was, instead, bright ruby red lipstick. And that's what passes for fun in the dead of winter in Toronto for me.
So, I may miss a day or two over the next few weeks as we slowly march towards spring. Yesterday morning I sat pondering something to write, even though I'd spent my entire Sunday in. I wanted a break from the cold. In the end I found I had nothing, really, to say.
I imagine there are others, with and without disabilities, that are gradually giving way to 'indoor time' as a means to just coping in such frigid temperatures. I wonder if they, like me, got unreasonably excited to hear that on Friday it's going to get up to 0 degrees?
Slipping away now, am I, to put on a bit more of my lip balm. Hoping soon to pucker up and give Winter a kiss goodbye. I'll even wear ruby red for that!