Friday, June 05, 2009

Oh Oh

"Do you feel this?" Joe is looking at the back of my leg and I can see that he's prodding, but no, I don't feel anything. There is concern on his face which leads to panic on mine. "What's there, what are you seeing?" "You have a sore here," he said to the sound of my heart falling.

It's been a long time since I've had any kind of problem with sores or infections. I keep a close watch on my blood sugars and my skin is checked every other day. Neither Joe or I can figure where it came from or what it might mean. He reasures me it looks like just a normal kind of sore. But on me, in the form my diabetes takes there is no normal.

I carry around antibiotics, powerful ones, to use in case an infection begins when I'm away from home. I spent the whole evening trying to decide if 'now's the time' - but it doesn't feel the same as other times, so, I'm going to wait a day or two.

It's funny how time changes shape when you are worried about things like that. How a small sore or scratch, something you'd never notice as a kid - now becomes a threat to your wellbeing. Luckily I have a busy day today. I'll be highly distracted. Then, THEN, a weekend to relax and to watch and wait. Well, they call for a rainy weekend, we were wondering what to do and now we have a science project.

8 comments:

Belinda said...

I know what I'll be doing this weekend, rainy or not, and it involves praying.

Brenda said...

I know from "Oh Oh". Sending some extra love and light your way!

CJ said...

I'll have my community pray for you this evening at temple.

The prayer is called the "Mi Sheberakh."

softestbullet said...

Best of luck! :(

Shan said...

Oh dear...praying for the best.

Colleen said...

Dear Dave:

I will be praying too.

Colleen

liz said...

Thinking of you.

Kate said...

Be thinking of you too. Hope it's nothing serious.