WARNING WARNING WARNING: VERY STRONG LANGUAGE IN POST
I got up this morning just after midnight to go for a pee. I knew I shouldn't but I popped on the blog for a few seconds to see what was going on with comments. I discovered that my blog had been discovered by the world outside the disability community. I had had over 100 hits in an hour and there were just over 70 people on my blog at that moment. Somehow my blog had gotten listed somewhere and all these visitors were storming the gates.
Sometimes it feels like 'preaching to the choir' when writing a blog so I was pleased that some of those who are more likely to use the word 'retard' and more likely to see 'Tropic Thunder' were reading the blog. I could see from the stats that the specific blog being visited was my letter to Ben Stiller. Cool. Then just before going back to bed I wondered if these new visitors were leaving any comments.
A few had ... all negative. But one was so outrageous in what it said that it bears being reprinted here. Remember, I did warn you about strong language:
You're a fucking cunt. Grow some fucking balls you spineless faggot. You're out of touch. Someone makes a joke that mocks the handicapped and you write him a fucking letter holding him responsible? He doesn't give a fuck. And he rightfully shouldn't. You're the reason there are school-shootings. Pussy fucks like you raising your children to be passive snot-nosed shitlickers that will eventually snap and then pull a gun on their classmates because losers like you never taught them that sometimes they just have to ignore stupid people.
Fuck you, and fuck everything you stand for
Now here I am sitting safely in my apartment feeling, not upset or anger, but fear. I don't know who this person is (while I have the courage of having a name, my attacker has the cowardice of the anonymous - who's spineless here?) or what they might be capable of. This is the kind of person that exists in the world, this is the kind of reaction that confrontation can occasion. Wow.
I'm glad that my post made this writer angry. I'm glad their true hostility came out. This allows us all to sit up and take notice about the world as it actually is and prejudice as it actually happens. This person is reacting harshly to what? My letter to Ben Stiller? I don't think so. I think this person is reacting to the challenge that their use of a hateful word is evidence of a hateful spirit. Their denial, or rather, their form of denial gives truth to that sentiment.
The job is a big one. I don't care about convincing this writer about the rightness of our cause. I don't care if they ever believe that name calling is wildly inappropriate ... their use of the word faggot, tells me that this is a hollow dream. What I care about is that we realize that we must work hard, harder, hardest to ensure that those in our care, professionally or personally, are prepared well for the world.
Because the world has this writer in it.
A sad fact.
But a fact.