I have a question.
One that smells a little bit of self pity.
I was so tired yesterday. Really, really tired. After work Joe and I went to see an small art installation in a public building. We wanted to check it out because it's sounded like something the girls would enjoy. We headed into the exhibit and found that I was only able to see one side of it because it was a 'walk around' and one side was very, very, narrow. I couldn't pass. No one in a wheelchair and no one using a walker could get through the narrow passageway.
Dutifully I went to make a complaint, and in fact I was quite upset. This is an installation in a public building. I spoke to a woman and told her that I couldn't get round the display, that it was set up without regard to accessibility standards and that I was upset for a couple reasons.
1) I wanted to see it properly.
2) How could I bring children to an exhibit where they get to see something cool while seeing me sitting off to the side, not included?
Of course when you make a complaint the person you are complaining to doesn't have any power to fix anything. All they can do is report it to those who do have power. Their job is to let you know that they will do what's in their power (nothing) to let the people in power know. I should say here, that when I said it was inaccessible, I didn't have to explain why - she already knew. I'm convinced they all knew and didn't care. I think they depend on our silence acceptance of purposeful exclusion.
Now I'm tired from being tired, and I'm extra tired from having to roll over and have this discussion. We went for a cup of tea and talked about it. Mostly we talked about me being so tired. This lead to a chat about maybe a bit of a vacation was needed. Then Joe asked if I would be able to take a vacation, not only from work, but from getting upset and making complaints - verbal or written - when I run into prejudice ... attitudinal or structural.
It's not in my nature. I said that to Joe and he agreed.
Here's my question, how do you turn off? Is there a secret to shutting down the advocacy motor that runs in our minds and our hearts.
If you know the answer or have a hint. Let me know.
Because I'm tired.