We had a hard decision to make. I was scheduled to do to days of training up in Timmins and I knew that people were coming from long distances to come. I was still really sick, coughing constantly, having sweaty nights sleep. We talked briefly about cancelling. But then, people had arranged their schedules, booked travel, organized their weeks - it seemed just wrong to cancel. Besides, I had two days to yet get better. And what's the difference between sitting in a car and sitting on a couch (turns out it's quite different)? So we headed out the door yesterday. I hadn't left the apartment since Friday so it was nice to be outside.
As we drove up the 400 I grimaced as we passed the exit to my office. Important stuff had happened over the last two days, things I had organized, I missed the whole thing. But I had team members who stepped in and everything that needed to get done, got done, without me. There's an uncomfortable lesson there I think. But I resisted the urge to feel guilty, I was really sick, I didn't want to make others sick. So I simply waved and we drove on.
We arrived in Sudbury, where we were staying - the half way point, and I got into the room and back into bed. I don't know if the jostling around made any difference at all, but I was feeling better. Now, this morning, I actually felt like writing a blog. After having been laid up for several days, I don't have much to say, but still, I wanted to get back to some kind of routine.
When I'm sick, my judgement is cloudy. So I wonder if I could ask your help. I've received three odd comments on the blog I wrote on World Down Syndrome Day called Choosing Sides. Be prepared because many of you are called names (and so am I). Now, I don't delete comments. But are these spam? I delete spam. They have me thinking I should develop a comment policy - I don't mind being attacked or called names, but I don't like it when you all are. So let me know:
1) Are these spam?
2) Should personal attacks be deleted?
As many of you will know I've been attacked for my view before and I've left the comments up because I've always thought that the anger behind the attack is instructive. People on the 'other side' feel just as passionately as we do. Never underestimate others. But these, for the first time, have me rethinking that.
I apologize to those of you who are named in these attacks. PREPARE YOURSELF before reading.