We are on our way to Michigan today where I will be speaking at a conference from there we head to Baltimore where I'll be at the state wide conference. I'm looking forward to being on the road now that it's summer. I feel like I have a new lease on life. With the snow gone I can wheel myself more easily, the wheelchair frame isn't ice cold, the wheels are finally completely thawed, thus the world has opened up to me
I could tell the other day that I've been wheeling less over the last few months because I'm tiring too easily and not going as far as I normally would. But all that takes is a bit of exercise, a bit of pushing and I'll be back to where I was before. It's imporant to me that I continue to live fully and have expectations of myself.
Because elsewhere they've fallen.
"Don't you think it's time you retire, after all you are in a wheelchair."
What people will say to me - I mean retire!?! I'm only in my 50's. Retire!?! I'm still passionate about what I'm doing. Retire!?! I'm years from being finished, I'm working on some of the biggest stuff of my career. Things that take time ... The Whole Truth just came out, The Key (A Sex Offender Treatment book) is scheduled to come out in a few weeks. The Vita 'Abuse Free' project is well underway and providing such delicious fruit. I'm already formulating a new set of goals. Retire!?! Because I'm in a wheelchair?
Here's fair warning - I have no intention of quitting until I'm done. My wheelchair doesn't write, I do. My wheelchair doesn't give lectures, I do. My wheelchair doesn't innovate ideas, I do. So, then, what on earth does my wheelchair have to do with anything other than get me from place to place. Don't get me wrong, I honour my wheelchair for the work it does. But it's work and mine are separate.
So to those who feel that, now I'm in a wheelchair, I am just desperate for your advice and input ... just because I look up to you, doesn't mean I admire you. This is not a state of worship, you are not in a state of grace. I still govern me. And NO, retirement isn't in my future - perhaps ever. Got that!?!