I've been working for several hours already.
When I was a child I taught to believe that adulthood would be full of fun, freedom and (euphemistically) frolic. They lied.
I realized, on Thursday, that I'd have to work much of the weekend. I get that. It's my job. But I had promised that Joe and I would go to the beach and go on the boardwalk together and maybe have a veggie hot dog from one of the vendors. We go there once or twice a year, I like to sit in the shade and read, occasionally looking up to take in the view. Since my wheelchair days, I haven't gone on the boardwalk as it's a very long walk and not an easy, for me, push. However, we've figured a way to get my power chair down there so I'll be going on the boardwalk with Joe and I'm looking forward to it.
I will be doing this knowing that I have work at home to do, that I have deadlines to meet, that people are counting on me to come in on Monday with what needed to be done, done. And it will be. I got up at 3 this morning, leaving Joe sleeping in bed, to begin the work, and I've got a good start on it. That's good. Because when we go to the Boardwalk, I want to enjoy it. I don't want to be there, wishing to be here. I don't want Joe to think that I'm dragging behind me a slight resentment that I'm not at the computer typing.
Slowly I'm developing the skill of fully being at work, when I'm working and the skill of not working when I'm not working. That might sound easy. And maybe for you it is. For me, it isn't. But I'm up for the challenge. In fact, I just broke from the work I'm supposed to be doing. I was stuck on something and thought I'd distract myself by coming here, hoping that the part of my brain that needed time to think will be thinking while my 'blog brain' was over here. It did. It's nudging me to go back to work. And that's what I'm going to do. Because beach time is coming.
So I'm aiming to beach while at the beach and work while I'm at work. Let's see how that goes. I'll let you know tomorrow if I managed. If I do, I'll be pleased, Joe will be ecstatic.