A funny (not ha ha funny) thing about having a blog is that you can write something in one frame of mind and read it later in another frame of mind - and go, "Oh, no, people are reading this." I hereby apologize for yesterday's blog and thank the two people who tried to make the blog relevant in their comments. When I read it again it just sounded 'whiney' and 'pouty' ... like a little kid looking for offense so he could have a tantrum.
It's true that my antennae are up when I'm in the world with and in my wheelchair at the same time. Partly that's due to having this blog and attempting to write something new every day. Partly because that's kind of who I am, I've always been alert to dangers in the world. I grew up learning that the world wasn't a safe place and to always be alive to the possiblity of hurt. Those things combined together can make me - a tad difficult and a wack oversensitive.
Sometimes it seems that I go out looking to prove my thesis: there are mean people in the world. Um, that's kinda proved every time you listen to the news. Sometimes, and this is tough to admit, I have a chip on my shoulder that someone needs to knock off. While there is prejudice in the world against people with disabilities, while there is rampant bigotry ... and those need to be pointed out. It kind of diminishes this reality when you enter the world expecting what you get, perhaps the waitress talked more with Joe than me, not because of my wheelchair, but because I was in a pissy mood. (The guy in the store has no excuse.)
So, I guess I'm saying I'll be a little more careful with the blog and on days when I feel whiney, pouty and in the mood to be a victim, I'll choose my topic more carefully.
Does anyone else ever have those whiny, pity me days?
Or am I alone in this.