Saturday, December 29, 2007

13

(I've actually been worried about writing my blog today. Once again, its set in the food court of a mall near here. You are going to think I live in malls and food courts. Winter hit hard this year and we've got two or three feet of snow on the ground. Everywhere we go we have to deal with snow and ice. Last year, and indeed the year before, we had little snow through the holiday season. I could go anywhere and didn't have to think about getting around in my wheelchair. This year with all the snow, the world is so much more restricted. My wheels slip, get wet and become impossible to push, my hands freeze. So, when we go out, like I like to every day, we've been going to the mall. There's a drop off place where I can get into the mall without my tires getting wet and in a few minutes my wheels have warmed up. This all means I've become a mall rat, already recognizable to some of the other regulars, but hey, this is not the story. The story takes place at the food court.)

We were, together, 5 of us. Mike was, like me, getting a falafel pita, Joe was over getting a vegetarian Thai soup and Joseph was at Taco Bell getting his meal. Ruby tagged along with Joe as Mike helped me. He carried the tray and I was pushing over to the disabled table. There were two women sitting there along with a small child. It bothers me that people take these tables, the blue wheelchair guy is clearly on the table. I like these tables, they are on the edge so easier to get into, they are slightly taller so a more comfortable fit for a wheelchair user. I said to Mike in a loudish voice, "The wheelchair table is around here somewhere." They actually pushed burger wrapping over the little symbol and kept eating!

Joe came and saw that the table next to the disabled take was just coming free. He suggested we take this one. This means I'm going to be stuck out in the aisle rather than tucked into a table. I glared over at one of the women, who relented and said, "Go ahead take this one, we'll move to that one." I'm mad now so I just say, "No, no, we'll sit here, we wouldn't want to disturb your lunch." So I sat with my angry back to them and we could all hear them suck their food back quicker than what was good for their health. Then they were gone.

Immediately upon their leaving, two other women sat down at the table and congratluated themselves on finding a table right away. I didn't say anything, I resolved to just let it go. I knew if I did I'd embarass Joseph, who as a teen boy has adaped to my disability with remarkable ease. Adults always judge themselves differently when being looked at by teenagers, I think. But then these two women are joined by the husband of one of them, he looks at the symbol on the table and says, "We can't sit here, this is reserved for people with disabilities," then he noticed that the table on the other side of us was free now. He indicated for them to join him, and the food he was carrying, at that table.

The women refused to move and became increasingly angry at him not just joining them at the table. He was steadfast, "That's the disabled table," he kept telling them. One woman turned to the other, "He can be such a stubborn asshole sometimes." I figured the speaker to be the wife. I've noticed that when married one feels free to use the harshest words to describe the marriage partner. It also pissed me off. I gave Joe a look, "I'm joining in right now."

I turned and politely said, "He's right, these tables are for those of us with disabilities. The reason that I'm sitting here at this table, sticking out into the aisle, making everyone squeeze around me is that other people like you - thoughtless, ignorant - sat at that table before you. You can sit there if you want, I'm not going to kick up a fuss, I just want you to know that your husband is right and you are lucky to be with someone who considers the needs of others before his own. Maybe if you open your eyes, you can learn from him."

Then I went back to my falafel and my friends. They sat a minute stunned, then got up and moved tables. All I heard was the husband saying, "What did he say to you?" and one of the women answering, "Nothing, he didn't say anything."

On our way out of the mall Joseph was pushing the wheelchair. He'd asked to help but he likes doing it because the likes to bend over and pretend he's pushing someone three times my weight - it's a funny act he puts on but I wish he wouldn't do it. But I say nothing, he's only kidding around. When we got to the door he said, "I think it's good that you told those women to move. I never speak up because I'm too shy. But I think it's good that you can."

Now we have ourselves a conversation about assertion and how it's important to know how and when to speak up to others. He's 13, these are big concepts. He's a bit shy, these are frightening concepts. But I'm glad we had the talk. I know he's thinking about it. Maybe someone in a wheelchair can be a roll model after all.

10 comments:

lisa6wks said...

Hello??? maybe??? Do you know that when I am teaching there are times that I ask myself, "what would Dave think of the way I am treating this child?" You are definitely a role model to some of us.

Lisa

John said...

Good for you. Some people can be so thougtless.

John

lilwatchergirl said...

Your response to this situation was really good. I find it extremely hard not to fall back on either passivity or aggression - usually the latter - in these situations. I just haven't figured out how to be assertive without being rude, especially when people's responses to me are often so impolite and thoughtless. Thanks for giving me an example of a way of approaching these kinds of situations without creating bad feeling towards disabled people among those I challenge. (Oh, and nice pun there. :D )

Mieke said...

You're a role model, Dave. There is no doubt about this. You help people rediscover what morality is, conscience. How we can live like beings that have a...soul.

Mieke.

Anonymous said...

Good on ya matey! Way to go! Wahoooo! Can't say I've seen any tables for people with disabilities in our malls in South Australia, so looks like we have a way to go. p.t.

lina said...

Good for you for speaking up - the audacity of the first group of people is what I can't get over - not to mention the women in the second group.

Lianna said...

I'm 43, and still fumbling my way around assertion. I come to your blog because you're educating me, like many others, 13 or not. I, too, am so glad that you spoke up. Education is key.

Jenny said...

I thought about you and your blog yesterday when we were at Taco Bell. I am nearly 9 months pregnant and pretty out there, so I can't fit in their booths anymore. I can't really fit in the swivel chairs, either. We sat at a table that had a regular chair, and I made sure that it didn't have the little blue chair guy. I would have felt really guilty using that table (especialy if it had had the logo on it) if someone in a wheelchair came in... even if I couldn't have fit anywhere else myself.

Lisa b said...

"maybe" most certainly. You are a role model for us all, wheelchair, attitude and everything I have read here.

Mark Pathak said...

Its good Joseph heard you speak up, after all, “nothing is as contagious as example”

Nice one.