2001

2001 An Odyssey in filling this space.

Yesterday's post was post 2000! Today I keep counting on. It did cause me to stop and ponder. Was the blog doing what I wanted it to do? Was it something I still wanted to do? Was it habit, or need, or did it indeed serve some purpose. No, I'm not asking for confirmation from you all as readers, you are good at doing that along the way, and occasionally something will happen that makes me really glad I posted that day and that I had a blog. I think it's just that these milestones need to be marked somehow. And for me, since there's not going to be a party, I celebrate by pondering.

The blog has changed since it began. I had decided to blog for simply one year, as a means of documenting my life as a person with a disability and how that intersected with my life as a service provider. Well, that was well over a year ago, so the blog has clearly taken on it's own life and sometimes seems to have a personality a bit separate from my own. That's odd to say but I've spoken to other bloggers who say similar things.

So what do I want to achieve with the blog now? I wondered.

For awhile, maybe three years ago, I was really intentionally blogging because there had been a rumour gone round that I had passed away. Wanted to dispel that pretty quickly, dead can have a serious impact on one's ability to make a living. Then, after resurrection, there was a rumour gone round that I had retired. Like that's ever going to happen. So, I wrote to reassure those who wanted to book me for trainings or consultations that I was up and working and really, REALLY not retired. But, since then, I've blogged because there were things I wanted to say, and the blog was a good way of saying them.

Now I think I blog because I feel part of a small community here on Rolling Around In My Head. I check comments both to see what you think about what I wrote and to see who's hanging round. I find myself challenged some times, annoyed sometimes, moved sometimes, tickled sometimes ...just as I do with people in my non blog world. It's an odd relationship we all have here, but it is a relationship.

Joe asked if I was still eager to keep the blog going. I admitted to him that there were days where it was a struggle to write something, both because of being tired but also, sometimes, because nothing happened to write about. But then, usually, almost always, I find something to say. Other times, there will be a line up of topics, I've got three blog ideas lined up, so I'm good for this week.

Anyways, I just wanted to say that I'm here because you're here. So thanks! I like RAIMH's blog community and am really pleased to be part of it. Tomorrow we're two steps on the way to three thousand. Oh, my suddenly I got winded just from typing that!