Today is the last day of work before vacation. I'm typing this about an hour before the bus comes to pick me up. I have a few things to do today that, if not done, will creep into my mind throughout the vacation and steal peace from me. I admit it I'm a worry-wart. More than that I take small concerns and turn them into giant catastrophes. I've learned then, to try to sweep up concerns with a very industrious broom and dump them into the 'finished with' bin.
Knowing myself isn't always a pleasant thing, sometimes it's like having an annoying neighbour whose habits are grating but, well, what do you do, they live next door and you can't avoid them. So, instead I develop coping mechanisms and end up talking to myself about myself in the third person, 'Get this done or he'll bug you about it for the whole holiday.' 'Make that phone call or he'll make you feel guilty about it for days and days.' This is probably a weird way to go about life but, it works. I get things done and avoid that carping inner voice who believes that nagging and guilt are a form of helping.
On Sunday we meet up with Mike, Marissa, Ruby and Sadie for the rest of the week. We were talking on the phone last night and Ruby came on to talk. I asked her if she was looking forward to the vacation. She said, 'Yep'. What was she looking forward to, 'When the water falls' she said referring to a huge bucket that dumps water at the water park. Do you have anything you need to do before you go, I asked thinking of all the packing and getting ready, 'No.' She was completely unconcerned and already ready though not a single item of clothing or a single toy packed.
My goal is to do everything I can that will shut the neighbour up and spend time looking at the world like a 4 year old girl who hasn't a care in the world. That and nap a lot.